<p>我专注着低着头。我看见一群小蚂蚁,一群,排着整齐的队伍“一,二,三”地朝一个地方行进。<br/>我缩起我的爪子,放松我的身体,它们是我的邻居,住在离我身体一米远的距离。它们有很多伙伴,一群。但我,只有一个,也许你不相信,但这是事实,我就住在这个被人遗弃的废弃的汽车修理厂。轮胎之间是我的游乐场,轮胎下是我的睡眠床。<br/><img src="attachments/dvbbs/2007-5/2007574143321767.jpg" border="0" onload="if(this.width>screen.width*0.7) {this.resized=true; this.width=screen.width*0.7; this.alt=\'Click here to open new window\nCTRL+Mouse wheel to zoom in/out\';}" onmouseover="if(this.width>screen.width*0.7) {this.resized=true; this.width=screen.width*0.7; this.style.cursor=\'hand\'; this.alt=\'Click here to open new window\nCTRL+Mouse wheel to zoom in/out\';}" onclick="if(!this.resized) {return true;} else {window.open(\'attachments/dvbbs/2007-5/2007574143321767.jpg\');}" onmousewheel="return imgzoom(this);" alt="" /></p><p>曾经我也过一段美好的时光,那时候我还很小,妈妈在我身边和我一起生活,她也是只灰黑条纹的猫,她曾说我长得最象她,说着说着,她的声音就会低下去,眼神惘然地望着前方,我那时不懂她平静里藏掖的忧伤,直到那天我和妈妈出去觅食。<br/><br/></p><p><img src="attachments/dvbbs/2007-5/2007574145711985.jpg" border="0" onload="if(this.width>screen.width*0.7) {this.resized=true; this.width=screen.width*0.7; this.alt=\'Click here to open new window\nCTRL+Mouse wheel to zoom in/out\';}" onmouseover="if(this.width>screen.width*0.7) {this.resized=true; this.width=screen.width*0.7; this.style.cursor=\'hand\'; this.alt=\'Click here to open new window\nCTRL+Mouse wheel to zoom in/out\';}" onclick="if(!this.resized) {return true;} else {window.open(\'attachments/dvbbs/2007-5/2007574145711985.jpg\');}" onmousewheel="return imgzoom(this);" alt="" /></p><p>在那条车流不息的路中间,一只和我们肤色相近的猫倒在血泊中,旁边是一只凄厉高叫的猫,我颤抖不已,这之前我从未看见过同伴的死亡。。。。。我害怕地转过头找妈妈依靠,却见一向温柔的妈妈同样凄厉尖叫,他们的眼神同时愤恨地看着来来往往无动于衷的人类。<br/>后来,妈妈告诉我,我的大哥三姐亦死于人类的车轮下。<br/>我们没有名字,我们被唤做“野猫”。我们游荡在这座光怪流离,欲望横溢的城市里,我们却很难找到一处完全能安全容身之处。<br/><br/>我们颠沛流离,我们的眼睛在暗夜如此闪亮,却早已不会酝酿那种叫做眼泪的物质。</p><p><img src="attachments/dvbbs/2007-5/2007574153125850.jpg" border="0" onload="if(this.width>screen.width*0.7) {this.resized=true; this.width=screen.width*0.7; this.alt=\'Click here to open new window\nCTRL+Mouse wheel to zoom in/out\';}" onmouseover="if(this.width>screen.width*0.7) {this.resized=true; this.width=screen.width*0.7; this.style.cursor=\'hand\'; this.alt=\'Click here to open new window\nCTRL+Mouse wheel to zoom in/out\';}" onclick="if(!this.resized) {return true;} else {window.open(\'attachments/dvbbs/2007-5/2007574153125850.jpg\');}" onmousewheel="return imgzoom(this);" alt="" /></p><p>有一天,妈妈忽然对我提起爸爸,她在某年某月某日偶然遇见的那只黄白相间的漂亮雄性。象这世界千千万万只猫一样,他们曾一起走过无数条街,他们曾一起趴在软木墩上晒秋日的阳光,在寒冷的冬夜也曾用相互的体温温暖对方。<br/>妈妈说,我们猫类其实是一种暗夜里的动物,所以我们一直尽力地朝着有阳光的地方生长。我们比任何生物都渴望爱情,但那些动荡不安的感情,最后却可能只能变成一幕静止的景象。<br/>后来呢?爸爸呢?我问。<br/>妈妈不答,静成一尊雕像。</p><p><img src="attachments/dvbbs/2007-5/2007574162095092.jpg" border="0" onload="if(this.width>screen.width*0.7) {this.resized=true; this.width=screen.width*0.7; this.alt=\'Click here to open new window\nCTRL+Mouse wheel to zoom in/out\';}" onmouseover="if(this.width>screen.width*0.7) {this.resized=true; this.width=screen.width*0.7; this.style.cursor=\'hand\'; this.alt=\'Click here to open new window\nCTRL+Mouse wheel to zoom in/out\';}" onclick="if(!this.resized) {return true;} else {window.open(\'attachments/dvbbs/2007-5/2007574162095092.jpg\');}" onmousewheel="return imgzoom(this);" alt="" /></p><p>我声嘶力竭。我终于明白妈妈给我的最后的答案是什么。<br/>是这个和平时看起来无二致的清晨,蚂蚁们还是在安静地搬家。<br/>我却剩下一个人。<br/>谁弄丢了我?谁在路边听见我响澈十里的呜咽与恐慌?如果连妈妈都离开我,我怎么能握得住那些昨日残留的余温?<br/><br/></p><p><img src="attachments/dvbbs/2007-5/2007574165056421.jpg" border="0" onload="if(this.width>screen.width*0.7) {this.resized=true; this.width=screen.width*0.7; this.alt=\'Click here to open new window\nCTRL+Mouse wheel to zoom in/out\';}" onmouseover="if(this.width>screen.width*0.7) {this.resized=true; this.width=screen.width*0.7; this.style.cursor=\'hand\'; this.alt=\'Click here to open new window\nCTRL+Mouse wheel to zoom in/out\';}" onclick="if(!this.resized) {return true;} else {window.open(\'attachments/dvbbs/2007-5/2007574165056421.jpg\');}" onmousewheel="return imgzoom(this);" alt="" /></p><p><br/></p>
<p>我终于习惯一个人。<br/>也许这就是猫的命运,我相信妈妈离开我有她不得已的理由,或者她是在告诉我要在这人类世界生存的法则,我必须习惯,习惯一个人觅食,一个人奔跑,一个人承受冷漠,一个人躲开所有的恶意的伤。<br/>我终于长大,而妈妈就不再回来,也许她是去找爸爸了,也许她现在陪在我的姐妹兄弟身旁。不知道她能不能感受的我的想念,我习惯了在她离去的每日黄昏倚着墙角晒太阳的余珲,因为我记得我的母亲曾经告诉我:我们猫类是一种暗夜里的动物,所以我们一直尽力地朝着有阳光的地方生长。<br/></p><p><img src="attachments/dvbbs/2007-5/2007574174177225.jpg" border="0" onload="if(this.width>screen.width*0.7) {this.resized=true; this.width=screen.width*0.7; this.alt=\'Click here to open new window\nCTRL+Mouse wheel to zoom in/out\';}" onmouseover="if(this.width>screen.width*0.7) {this.resized=true; this.width=screen.width*0.7; this.style.cursor=\'hand\'; this.alt=\'Click here to open new window\nCTRL+Mouse wheel to zoom in/out\';}" onclick="if(!this.resized) {return true;} else {window.open(\'attachments/dvbbs/2007-5/2007574174177225.jpg\');}" onmousewheel="return imgzoom(this);" alt="" /></p><p><br/>看见一双眼,在废弃的钢管下面。警觉,疑惑,不安,渴望。只有我们猫类的瞳孔才会写满这么多相互纠缠的内容。<br/>他小心翼翼地看着我,我也小心翼翼地看着他,看着看着,我的眼里盛满他绿色瞳孔圆的形状。<br/></p><p> </p><p><img src="attachments/dvbbs/2007-5/2007574182874803.jpg" border="0" onload="if(this.width>screen.width*0.7) {this.resized=true; this.width=screen.width*0.7; this.alt=\'Click here to open new window\nCTRL+Mouse wheel to zoom in/out\';}" onmouseover="if(this.width>screen.width*0.7) {this.resized=true; this.width=screen.width*0.7; this.style.cursor=\'hand\'; this.alt=\'Click here to open new window\nCTRL+Mouse wheel to zoom in/out\';}" onclick="if(!this.resized) {return true;} else {window.open(\'attachments/dvbbs/2007-5/2007574182874803.jpg\');}" onmousewheel="return imgzoom(this);" alt="" /></p><p>渐渐地探出头,尾巴垂服于一定形状。<br/>这一天,天气真好,天空蔚蓝,这样的遇见,之前无任何准备。<br/>后来他对我说,其实那天我的好奇的表情。。。非常媚。<br/><br/></p><p><img src="attachments/dvbbs/2007-5/2007574185582164.jpg" border="0" onload="if(this.width>screen.width*0.7) {this.resized=true; this.width=screen.width*0.7; this.alt=\'Click here to open new window\nCTRL+Mouse wheel to zoom in/out\';}" onmouseover="if(this.width>screen.width*0.7) {this.resized=true; this.width=screen.width*0.7; this.style.cursor=\'hand\'; this.alt=\'Click here to open new window\nCTRL+Mouse wheel to zoom in/out\';}" onclick="if(!this.resized) {return true;} else {window.open(\'attachments/dvbbs/2007-5/2007574185582164.jpg\');}" onmousewheel="return imgzoom(this);" alt="" /></p><p>后来,这里开始热闹。原来他们是一群。长相相似的一群。如同我与妈妈,或者是我与未曾谋过面的兄弟姐妹。他们远远地望着我,我们是同类,却被生活逼得如此陌生与疏离。、<br/>开始热闹,空旷废弃的汽修厂,传来我同类的嬉闹,但我还是发现自己内心的寂寞,并且手足无措。<br/>所有听进耳朵的嘈杂,其实都是 与自己无关的纷杂。<br/><br/></p><p><img src="attachments/dvbbs/2007-5/2007574191846520.jpg" border="0" onload="if(this.width>screen.width*0.7) {this.resized=true; this.width=screen.width*0.7; this.alt=\'Click here to open new window\nCTRL+Mouse wheel to zoom in/out\';}" onmouseover="if(this.width>screen.width*0.7) {this.resized=true; this.width=screen.width*0.7; this.style.cursor=\'hand\'; this.alt=\'Click here to open new window\nCTRL+Mouse wheel to zoom in/out\';}" onclick="if(!this.resized) {return true;} else {window.open(\'attachments/dvbbs/2007-5/2007574191846520.jpg\');}" onmousewheel="return imgzoom(this);" alt="" /></p><p>我知道他在望着我。即便他眯起他绿色的眼。我想起我的爸爸和妈妈,那时他们的相遇,也曾是那样的惊鸿一瞥。<br/>他的眼神带来一场温暖的幻觉,他仿若是我在这个动荡不安的世界的一场投靠,甚至他的叫声,他的动作亦在向我表明他会为了这场邂逅拼尽全力。 <br/><br/>我该如何呢?在凌晨时分爬上他呆过的洞口,欺骗自己说上面还有他留下的余温。<br/>我高调地宣告我的爱情时代的到来,却要那么低调地选择转身离开。<br/>某年某月某日某个人类丢弃的报纸上写着:<br/>“猫的生育能力很强,10到12个月就性成熟,一胎可生2至8只,一年中至少可生两胎。1只猫一年两胎,1胎6只,一年就是1 2只。第二年子代就可以参与生育,可生出六七十只,第三年就达到三四百只,这样计算,十年就有8000多万只。当然,实际上由于疾病和生存环境的原因,不可能所有的猫都活下来,但就是有百分之一活下来,也是个天文数字。”<br/>我,看懂了。<br/><br/></p><img src="attachments/dvbbs/2007-5/2007574194494135.jpg" border="0" onload="if(this.width>screen.width*0.7) {this.resized=true; this.width=screen.width*0.7; this.alt=\'Click here to open new window\nCTRL+Mouse wheel to zoom in/out\';}" onmouseover="if(this.width>screen.width*0.7) {this.resized=true; this.width=screen.width*0.7; this.style.cursor=\'hand\'; this.alt=\'Click here to open new window\nCTRL+Mouse wheel to zoom in/out\';}" onclick="if(!this.resized) {return true;} else {window.open(\'attachments/dvbbs/2007-5/2007574194494135.jpg\');}" onmousewheel="return imgzoom(this);" alt="" /><br/>
<p>所以我转身,逃离。<br/>小时候,妈妈告诉我,幸福就象我的尾巴,越追它就逃得越快。幸福真的遗失在我转身的刹那。<br/>不是所有的相遇都有芬芳,逃离他的视线 ,换个地方忧伤。<br/></p><p><img src="attachments/dvbbs/2007-5/2007574203127565.jpg" border="0" onload="if(this.width>screen.width*0.7) {this.resized=true; this.width=screen.width*0.7; this.alt=\'Click here to open new window\nCTRL+Mouse wheel to zoom in/out\';}" onmouseover="if(this.width>screen.width*0.7) {this.resized=true; this.width=screen.width*0.7; this.style.cursor=\'hand\'; this.alt=\'Click here to open new window\nCTRL+Mouse wheel to zoom in/out\';}" onclick="if(!this.resized) {return true;} else {window.open(\'attachments/dvbbs/2007-5/2007574203127565.jpg\');}" onmousewheel="return imgzoom(this);" alt="" /></p><p>我的名字叫做CAT,我忧郁的时候眼睛有蓝光,我身上贴的标签叫做流浪,若你能带我回家最好,我们应该被人类爱上,若你无视我的经过,我无非就是继续我的行程,但请你把你行车的速度放慢些,我只是一只在轮胎夹缝中生存的猫。<br/><br/></p><p><img src="attachments/dvbbs/2007-5/200757421136398.jpg" border="0" onload="if(this.width>screen.width*0.7) {this.resized=true; this.width=screen.width*0.7; this.alt=\'Click here to open new window\nCTRL+Mouse wheel to zoom in/out\';}" onmouseover="if(this.width>screen.width*0.7) {this.resized=true; this.width=screen.width*0.7; this.style.cursor=\'hand\'; this.alt=\'Click here to open new window\nCTRL+Mouse wheel to zoom in/out\';}" onclick="if(!this.resized) {return true;} else {window.open(\'attachments/dvbbs/2007-5/200757421136398.jpg\');}" onmousewheel="return imgzoom(this);" alt="" /></p><p><br/> </p><img src="attachments/dvbbs/2007-5/2007574212334262.jpg" border="0" onload="if(this.width>screen.width*0.7) {this.resized=true; this.width=screen.width*0.7; this.alt=\'Click here to open new window\nCTRL+Mouse wheel to zoom in/out\';}" onmouseover="if(this.width>screen.width*0.7) {this.resized=true; this.width=screen.width*0.7; this.style.cursor=\'hand\'; this.alt=\'Click here to open new window\nCTRL+Mouse wheel to zoom in/out\';}" onclick="if(!this.resized) {return true;} else {window.open(\'attachments/dvbbs/2007-5/2007574212334262.jpg\');}" onmousewheel="return imgzoom(this);" alt="" /><br/>